Spirit (feat. Loryn Troyer)

I've been searching
Stumbling through the dark
Tryna find a way to produce a work of art
I took the pain inside and made it speak with my heart
Now when I catch a vibe I'm thinking about it smart
People say they know me they never know what I've seen
Addiction, mental illness, and violence formed a king
I took a black eye but never stepped out the ring
And every night I cried was always part of the dream
Heres the thing
I have never cared about appearance
I really only care if your spirit is coherent
Aware of my mortality but I will never fear it
Cuz when I die, my mind will finally reach a clearance
I'll see the way I've lived and every battle that I've won
See the way a father cared and chose to raise a son
I'll understand the reason why I had to crawl and run
Through all the changing seasons and weather that I've overcome
I started out early maybe 16
I lived inside a box that housed all my shattered dreams
It kept my soul empty, locked me in quarantine
Its like tryna breath while stuck inside a guillotine

The music that you hear now is just a way of speakin
It's just a way of expression,
A way that I be reachin'
A way to calm the storm
This music kept me breathin'
A way for yall to hear my voice when I feel like preachin'
whats the reason?
Well, I'm tryna figure that one out
Maybe love and family is what its all about
Maybe I'm too nieve to fully understand
I made my first steps in a place I thought Id never land
But now Im here, so I hope you know I'll never quit
You could knock me down, but I was built to take a hit
You could run the town, but I have built it brick by brick
Now everything I write, came with the cost of being sick
And too legit
But the masses never care for that
They only care about clout and mumbo jumbo rap
They only care about status
And where your numbers at
They dont care about spirit or where you're humble at

We've got the love
You make me strong
You are the one
Lets go beyond