Millions of Heartbeats

I've been feeling a little bit different, a little bit strange
There's this numbness inside of me
Things aren't hitting in quite the same way
I look for inspiration
At night my heart beats so fast I get palpitations
You know I've got total devotion
But the spark is lit at such a low flame
There are no guarantees
What are my boundaries
How do I protect myself?
Time no longer makes sense
Can't relate to my friends
There has to be something else

Everyone is trying, trying so hard, well maybe
Maybe you could try a little bit too
Everything hurts, yeah it hurts so much
I eat my dinner in the toilets at lunch
I just want to believe, is that feeling still inside me?
The sun has gone and so must I
Do you think we'll know each other when we die?
The sky is grey and I'm blue
Have I told you that I love you?

I guess what I'm asking
Is am I a number or am I a person?
I want a simple answer
But I'm simply given another diversion
You're working from the inside
But now you find yourself in the building
They say I'm only human
Well isn't that the problem?

Everyone is trying, trying so hard, well maybe
Maybe you should try a little bit too

Everything you feel can just come undone
And the media supports all the far right scum
I just want to believe but the feelings not inside me
The sun has gone and so must I
Do you think we'll know each other when we die?
The sky is grey and I'm blue
Have I told you that I love you?

Come outside look up with me
The moon is full and bright tonight
All the stars laid out like they're watching us
Wish they could send help
But for now all we have in millions
Millions of light-years is millions and millions of heartbeats
And I think it's worth holding on for, well don't you oh?
I guess we have to try