The Agony

Tell me about the lies
That you hide behind
That you know will arise
When the day turns to the night

When the woods burn to the ground
When you're broken, inside out
When the lights have left the town

Through all the ups and all the downs
I can't tell what really counts
I can't see through all the dust
I can only self-destruct

I don't know when, don't know where
Spin my pen like a flare
Through the darkness of the night
I really hope I'll be alright

Everyday I begin to feel like it's the next already
To even think about the lies that gave me misperceptions
Of a life free of lies, pain, anxiety
I feel like I am the biggest bigot of society

And even these words
As they come out of my mouth
Make me think that I'm stupid
For always talking so loud

All the things I could ever say
Or ever even think about
Have already been spoken
So all I'll ever write is stolen

From other people
That are better than me
Better better they be
Oh better better they see

How I'm sitting here
Writing cautiously
'Bout the way I feel
In anxious agony-y-y

One more day and my agony is apathy
One more day of treading lightly
One more day and I won't disagree
That I'll probably never leave a lasting legacy

I could ever see
See without me on my knees
See while I am still alive
While I'm guarded by my mind

Fast - listen here and write
This - is a heist on my mind
Do you mind if I do?
Even if, you're not the one to choose

Would you look at that
My mind is so blue
Who might have it got so bruised?

I have - but who is me?
Is this me just my mind
Or is there something
That I cannot see

Like a ghost - hiding inside
Hiding hiding my mind
That's hard
Believe me I've tried

But when my eyes turn dark again
All that I do is to pretend That I know the way
That keeps my doubts at bay
That I know what to say

So that my thoughts are not blades
That fall in my way
That make the ground shake
Or bite me like snakes

And though they keep me awake
They won't be my grave
I won't be their slave
'Cause today, everything has changed

Break down the agony, oh-oh
But please with courtesy
Don't make a sound
For all it does is bounce
Bounce, bounce all around
Bounce, bounce

Off of the ground
Oh you bounce to the sound
Oh oh, move all around
Oh oh, bounce on the ground
Oh oh, make it all count