Dark Paradise

I'll say goodbye
To what I thought I knew it meant to be alive
Run back and forth inside my head
I've been counting every reason
Just to try and make this all make sense
But I keep on coming back with all these
Wounds to stitch, no room to switch
All my panic into something I can use to fix my selfishness

How long will I just sit
And watch the disconnection grow 'til it can't be fixed?
The damage done, that's the consequence
Of burning bridges that you shouldn't have lit

Straight down
I just think it's hard to pretend we're straight now
I can't shake them, the complications that I found
Searching for a future without you
Lusting for something that feels brand new
Wishing you could feel just like I do

Straight down
I can't look myself in the mirror
Holding on 'til I can see clearer
Hoping I can piece things together

How long will I just sit
And watch the disconnection grow 'til it can't be fixed?
The damage done, that's the consequence
Of burning bridges that you shouldn't have lit

I've got myself to blame
Nobody else but me
For my lack of happiness
I just gave up and that was it
I just don't think it's right for me to live so selfishly
Why do I always play pretend
Only holding back what I'm feeling within
Only wasting time

How long will I just sit
And watch the disconnection grow 'til it can't be fixed?
The damage done, that's the consequence
Of burning bridges that you shouldn't have lit
The damage done, that's the consequence
Of burning bridges that you shouldn't have lit

I've got myself to blame
Nobody else but me