I Fell In Love With the Neutral & the Good

I'm starting to notice a pattern
When days grow dark I escape
I go away
I'd had I'd had I'd had
A taste of freedom
Out the window

Maybe that escape is in our eyes
Close em up a little not too tight
Now now now
If you open up not too wide
Or the darker sights will taint all you find
Don't let fear blind you

I've seen the devil
He appears when people coalesce
If sin does exist then your god isn't perfect
I've seen many led astray

I can't stomach the worst of what happens
On this Earth
I don't want to hear about how it's justified
What can I do but turn a blind eye?
It's out of my hands
Systems can be tinkered with and improved
Nobody is perfect
You are not perfect
I am not

I am sorry if I did it wrong
It's not something that I meant to do
Sometimes I just feel so
Committed to this dance when I am spinning
Out of control
In the orbit of another helpless dancer
So we waltz waltz waltz waltz

If I see the world for what it is
And look at things objectively
With reason and mild detachment
Know that bias can't be beaten
Maybe I can shed the fear that I grew up with
Regarding a cosmic being
Always watching judging every action
Please don't be too hard on me
I promise I'm familiar with the
Constant critical voice in my head
Lately I've been practicing just taking it more easy
On my self my self and others
In covers feel as safe as I thought I was as a kid
When I fell in love with neutral and the good