Rents Due

I got my head in the clouds
The people closest are letting me down
They got their handout
Eventually I'm helping them out
And when that plane rides smoothly
I don't remember the route, until we crash
Then we all end up on the ground
(And then we all fall.)
And no one's at the table when the plate's empty
Don't say you love me
It sound fake to me
(Might be a lost cause.)
You only love me when it benefits you
When it all comes down, remember to move
I'm being stretched so thin
From favors to fake people
Pretending that we're friends
But clearly, we ain't equal
Try to determine whether or not
If the tables would turn
Would I get the same in return?
But rents due on the first though
Ain't no time to complain
I got people that's relying on me
Still waiting on my turn though
Cold hearted to the world
But it feels like a hun'ed degrees
(Sittin' in this inferno.)
Even though I get knocked down
I got to get back on my feet
Cause rent's due on the first though
(Landlord keep knockin')
Rent's due on the first though
(Landlord keep knockin')
An empty promise won't feed my kid
Yet you had the nerve to think I'd switch
It's overwhelming
Trying to shovel through the shit
That you were selling
Want to help me?
Then just say it
I ain't trying to read minds, bitch
Oh, you forgot what you say
I ain't going to remind shit
You at the bottom of your plate?
And now you need mine, bitch?
Oh, how convenient
Faith hits different when you seen it
And truth hits harder when you mean it
I have been bleeding
Helping people out for no reason
The wells ran dry where you drink from
What was I thinking?
You staying on a ship, sinking
The first boat out you leaped in
Maybe you don't see it
My family don't mean shit
Now I'm at the bottom of the landlord's lenience
Cause I just want to take a break
And try to gather my thoughts
On every burnt bridge
I happen to cross
But rents due on the first though
Ain't no time to complain
I got people that's relying on me
Still waiting on my turn though
Cold-hearted to the world
But it feels like a hun'ed degrees
Sittin' in this inferno
Even though I get knocked down
I gotta get back on my feet
Cause rent's due on the first though
Landlord keep knockin'
(Rent's due on the first though.)
Landlord keep knockin