Among the Living (Vinyl Version)

All I could have, would have
Should have told you
All I never even thought to ask you
Plays on my mind like a broken record
And I can not bring myself to speak
All that there was left for you to teach me
All you tried to make me understand
Isn't lost on me now that you have left me
Proving nothing ever goes as planned

Since you've been gone I've been frozen
Unable to feel
Your leaving stripped the world of meaning
Tell me how do I go on
When I see nothing but fog now
All around me pillars of smoke rise
Where our dreams burned to the ground
There is no light to be found
And I'm swimming in a deep lake of memories
I walk when I can't sleep
And all I do is think about you
And wish that you were still here

Tell me it's all been a terrible dream
The kind where you want to
But can not scream
Tell me I'll wake up and all will be as before
I'll be back in our hometown, and
You will walk through the door
I never knew I had so much to lose
Until I lost you

And I wonder if you can forgive me
For all the times I have done you wrong
I'd do anything just to embrace you
Among the living, where you belong

Somebody tell me how to make peace
With circumstance begotten of mistakes
How to accept that there can be
No second chances
When your soul escapes for grief
And your heart breaks
Breaks into a thousand little pieces
Shatters like a cup that used to keep

All your memories, your dreams and
Your desires, and
Now all you want to do is go to sleep, and
Sleep until the living nightmare is over
Sleep until the pain of it's no more
And the thought of facing the world
Doesn't petrify you
And you can pick yourself up off the floor

Mother Mary, won't you keep me steady
For my mind is weary and heavy is my heart
I'm still not sure if I can even do this
Could you bring me right back to the start?
There is so much about the past
That I'd like to change
To take all of the pieces apart, to re-arrange
The complex puzzle that is life
Ever-changing with each choice one makes
I was young, I was foolish, I was restless
I made many mistakes

Azrael, take good care of my baby
Raphael, help ease the pain
Gabriel, will you take my message to him?
Chamuel, let us know some peace
Jophiel, please illuminate this dark
And lonely time
Zadkiel, let compassion grace each step
Of this steep and rocky climb
Jeremiel, mercy of God, will you be his guide?
Help my brother journey safely over to the other side?

Beyond my reach and into your arms
Profoundly calm and peaceful a place
Life on earth can be so hard
They are better off there in some ways
And though I grieve now, though I cry
This is not our last goodbye
We will meet again I am sure
Another time, another life
Brother, sister, mother, wife
For love does even death endure

May the love between us
Allow me to find you
When we are reborn
In another form
I shall live the days
I have left on this earth
In honor of you

May God bless and keep you