I Feel Different

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I feel different, more elven
A higher form of the self I'm occupied in
But it's still restless, voluntary drowning
My chapstick's started tasting like the coffee that I'm drinking
Bitter, awake, and watered down
I don't think I'd know you if I saw you now

Third week of the month and I'm staring
At the sun till I've shot my vision
I need some star power, I need some attention
I need to know that how I'm feeling isn't
An endless, uphill climb of desperation

But I'm fine, I'm in control of my decisions
Yeah I'm fine, I'm comfortable in my inhibitions
I don't know why I cycle through this shit all the time
Where I say I'm fine
I'm not sure if I know what that feels like

There's ghosts on the internet, they haunt me
But I don't even recognize a face
It's just the feeling of never enough they're chasing
And I'm foolishly trying to give it all away
They just wanna scare me, it doesn't feel okay
I wanna be a final girl
That might not happen, babe

But I go
On throwing rocks at my own window
Sending letters to a person I don't know
Waiting for the other shoe to drop
For my heartbeat to stop
So I can float

But I'm fine, I'm in control of my decisions
Yeah I'm fine, I'm comfortable in my inhibitions
I don't know why I cycle through this shit all the time
Where I say I'm fine
I'm not sure if I know what that feels like



Credits
Writer(s): Zuzu Black
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