Extended Release

My lover is sleeping alone in my bed
An hour past midnight, a song in my head
My chemical fortress, insatiable itch
My body is only a means to an end
For turning the dials and squeezing out noise
A clumsy old toy to use or destroy
Sick in the morning when there's no more left
Back to the schedule, no time to obsess
Cause last night's masterpiece won't pay my salary
Even when I try, it doesn't get me high
But I can cry at a film again
When you talk I am listening
I pass through the storm
In two weeks I'm bored

Is it enough to just be loved?
Is it enough to just take one?
Is it okay to push things off?
To stick to the plan, accept the draw?
Well this hasn't killed me yet
And what you forget you can't regret
Extended release ain't out of gas
I'll live forever till' I collapse

Watching him laughing, watching him drive
Immersed in the motion, incapable of lying
I wouldn't trade places, vibrations or gazes
But sometimes I wonder
If when I was younger
I made the wrong turn
Or mixed up the words
Or someone didn't give me
Something I needed
And even if I found it
I would not know how to take it home

Is it enough to hold you close?
Was it that different on my own?
And is it my fault this isn't fun?
Would you like me better if I got drunk?
Is this not the time to make mistakes?
Will this be the year that got away?
And won't we have all the time we want
When my body is burned out, charred and crushed?
Well this hasn't killed me yet
And what you forget you can't regret
Extended release ain't out of gas
I'll live forever til' I collapse

Cause' some nights, some nights it sounds good
Some nights, some nights that's enough
Some nights, some nights I'm in love
Some nights, some nights that's enough
Some nights, some nights it sounds good
Some nights, some nights that's enough
Some nights, some nights I'm in love
Some nights, some nights that's enough