PTSD

(Took me over to your house to meet your family)
(Introduced me to them, saying that you'd marry me)
(Then you'd look me in the eye and say, "it's just a joke")
(Then you'd kiss me and I'd smile, did you even know?)
(When you'd say that kinda thing, I'd be excited)
(Got me hoping maybe one day you would mean it)
(Always thought I'd only make a fool of someone else)
(Now you've only gone and made me make one of myself)
(I guess that flowers aren't just used for big apologies)
(I guess I should've been more conscious how you spoke to me)
('Cause when we'd fight, you'd give me space and not communicate)
(And for a while I thought that's what I should appreciate)
(Maybe I was holding onto what I thought you were)
(But when you think too hard, eventually it starts to hurt)
(The version of you in my head, now I know wasn't true)
(Young people fall for the wrong people, guess my one was you)
(If there's anything I've learned, it's you should watch yourself)
(If it's hurting you, then leave and go and get some help)

I feel like I'm Rod Wave, back in 2019
A popular loner, safe to say I got stronger
But still suffering from PTSD
God please, help me
Take me to a place where I can find peace
Somewhere warm along a nice beach
Bora Bora, Hawaii, Dubai, Greece
I can't lie, God I'm so thankful to be alive
I'm no gangster, I just wanna see 25

Pain made me suffer, suffering made me a man
If you never been through shit then you probably won't understand
I remember all the times I'd want to blank myself
But I kept it solid, changed my mind, and saved myself
I got a bigger purpose, God showed me I'm far from worthless
But I'm far from perfect, all these scars were worth it
One day I'm gon be the living proof
As long as you put the work in
Your dreams will come true
(I know they'll come true)
Sliding in a Tesla, Mar, Justin, and I
I promise we'll be gone in a blink of an eye
Mima I can't lie, I wish that you were still here
The day I got the news I instantly shed a tear
But, you might be gone but you'll never be forgotten
Your grandson is a star who does not believe in stopping
Till I, see the day where I can live my dream
And spoil the whole team
I swear my life is as good as it seems

I feel like I'm Rod Wave, back in 2019
A popular loner, safe to say I got stronger
But still suffering from PTSD
God please, help me
Take me to a place where I can find peace
Somewhere warm along a nice beach
Bora Bora, Hawaii, Dubai, Greece
I can't lie, God I'm so thankful to be alive
I'm no gangster, I just wanna see 25

(When you'd say that kinda thing, I'd be excited)
(Got me hoping maybe one day you would mean it)
(Always thought I'd only make a fool of someone else)
(Now you've only gone and made me make one of myself)