Nineteen

I'll tell you the time it takes to settle in
The moment you can feel your heart begin again
Cause when you take something so vital
And turn it into nothing
It takes a little bit to ease the sting we felt back then

Cause you have sat for days and stared at spaces I no longer see
You have built yourself a bed of broken hearts and buried dreams

And you're only 19
You're only 19

I don't want to talk about the weather then
I have pushed myself through rain
Seen death turn children into men
And though the smoke and bubbles helped a lot
I mean look how far I've come
Ive lived a lifetime in 2 years
And I'm still better off than some

But you have lost so much
You shrug it off and say that you have won
But underneath I see a little boy
Who says that he is done

And you're only 21
You're only 21
You're only 21
You're only 21

I can see my body shaking in that little room
Heaving in and out like grief is in the air that I consume
My heart is pounding like a broken battered buried drum of war
I think I'm dying
As I lay there on there on the tiled floor

The end is near
And you are free
And you take all that is and will be
You take bones and death and grief
And you feel all that you can see

And you're only 23
You're only 23
You're only 23
You're only 23

Cause I have roamed for days
In blindness and still I have arrived
And in the darkness I can say I feel better off alive

And I'm only 25
I'm only 25
I'm only 25
I'm only 25