Used To

I get dark
I get anxious
I get lost inside my head
I keep wishing that I was someone else instead
No, I
I can't live in the moment
I get so stuck in the past
Right now I'm scared
That I might fuck things up
If I don't get it under control, cause

Sometimes I wanna die
Cause I feel like I'm hurting you
To tell you the truth, I
I don't wanna run
I don't wanna hide from you
But that's what I'm used to

Used to running in the wrong direction
Now I only wanna run to you
Right now I'm scared
That I might fuck things up
If I don't get it under control, cause

The light's so bright
When you've been in the dark
Oh god, it hurts my eyes
Cause I'm trying so hard to keep them open wide
So I'll know that I'll fuck things up
If I don't tell you the truth about me

Sometimes I wanna die
Cause I feel like Im hurting you
To tell you the truth, I
I don't wanna run
I don't wanna hide from you
But that's what I'm used to

That's what I'm used to

And I'll untrain my mind
From feeling like I'm not enough
I'll try to make myself realize
That I am worthy of your love
I'll untangle the knots of pain
That I had tucked away
Would you bring me to the surface
Would you promise you'll stay

Sometimes I wanna die
Cause I feel like I'm hurting you
To tell you the truth, I
I don't wanna hide from you

But that's what I'm used to



Credits
Writer(s): Cara Madaris
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