Broke Vase

I find myself waiting for moments instead of living in them Eyes locked on memories instead of creating them
Pulling myself out the dark has become much harder than then My arms heavy, my back hurting, I'm bleeding again

This feeling's a friend, I welcome him in With arms wide open, a couple glasses of vino
I'm just trying to fall asleep, I ain't trying to mess up this room Used to listen to the bangers, my playlist now filled with blues
Used to worry about the hooks, now I'm focusing on the verses I just hate how long it took for me to learn what my true worth is
The person inside the mirror is someone that's filled with purpose I mustn't ever forget

Now muster up all your strength and pull yourself up again It's far from over, the road to healing is rocky
The punches life throws is heavy, when no one is in your corner You focus on breathing steady
Don't lose sight of who you are, try to get back on the saddle Don't be bothered by the scars
They just show that you've been to battle To strive is to overcome, just know that the work ain't done

This tug of war far from won, just don't let go of the rope
And when the devil comes knocking, don't try to hide from the door Matter of fact, go meet him and tell him this time you good on your own
And when he tries to sweet talk you, just smile and say thank you though
Kick the habit, beat the odds, be like babies and grow Read about it, listen on it, understand what you don't

It's okay to say no
Too much comfort, maybe get up and go Make like Jack hit the road
Sometimes the mind needs to see something it's seen never before For truth to unfold
It's hard to explain, it's something that's felt and not told

Epiphanies by the boatload, I'm trying to stay woke, I'm trying to grow old
Thoughts of ending it are now just thoughts of the old days I forgave myself and all of my transgressions
With closed eyes, I saw better Look up self-reflection, a strong case of old ways
Finding new direction, there's always a broke vase That's been through disaster, cracks portray the irony of beautiful imperfections

So go on and get it going, keep going and never stop and If you do then just be honest, understand that it's just a pause
Take a breather, look around you, say your thank you's and be proud
Know you've come a long way, for you to give it up now
It's okay, you're okay, go ahead and let it all out