I'll Be Okay (Holgi Loewensenf Remix)

This is just a pen therapy session. with no plans to send it but somewhere for confessions.
The story starts in one bedroom house 7 kids way more than it allows.
Fast forward to an alcoholic father. A mother who was absent one who couldn't even bother
I'm left staring on the porch each hour getting harder. The days went on forever. the nights were even longer.
Im a teenager now I know how to push them feelings down. A couple Valium and Xanax mixed to get around.
I stay out all night to avoid the yells and all the screams. This is better Bell manor inhaling all my dreams.
You don't belong here white boy (other voice)
I guess J still ain't found his space. Stop rapping stop acting you should know your place (other voice).
What happened stop laughing they used to be my mates. Why around these other people they abuse me just the same

I finally built them walls look it only took 20 years. A lot of close calls Cut blood shed and Plenty tears.
Nothing can break me now the feelings fit the struggle
Hurt never subsided weak but these knees will never buckle
Im married now and I have children of my own. There are a few cracks but our foundation creates a stable home.
and my mom passed on now I think still think about her daily. Thankfully I still have the woman who stayed around to raise me.
My dad battled to get sober now he's my best friend. we developed a relationship and it's even better than I dreamnt
Life can be beautiful and completely amazing so I'm reaching to the clouds that's what truly saved me.