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A lot of shit on my mind but I will never tell 'em
None of my homies by my side on my own I been chilling
I don't wanna take no drugs they don't help with the healing
And I keep my circle small tell 'em boys I don't feel 'em
Told my mom that I been strong
I been chilling on my own yeah
I ain't picking up my phone
Cuz I much rather be alone

At times I wonder if I cry will I feel the same
At times I wonder if I die will they know my name
I'm just wondering right now if there'll be a change
Too much pain inside my heart I'm tryna sing it away
And I ain't tryna complain
But shit ain't been the same
Tryna figure out myself and who I became
Damn I already went crazy tryna dull my pain

In a stu' I'm feeling different yeah
First time it really got me singing
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Tryna catch my breath why my head is spinning
Too many humps to get around and that's why I'm tripping
I can't trip can't fall I just gotta keep walking
Cuz I know they want me to fall
It's been way too long I can tell that they're watching
And I gotta make it known that it ain't no stopping
I ain't gon lie my passion was hard to find
I was just down there in the basement tryna figure shit out
I could tell you what it was but you weren't around
When I needed you out there you were nowhere to be found
14 years old
Started chasing dreams on my own
Swear I used to pray for the shit that I'm on
Had to grow up fast and then I turned to a storm

At times I wonder if I cry will I feel the same
At times I wonder if I die will they know my name
I'm just wondering right now if there'll be a change
Too much pain inside my heart I'm tryna sing it away
And I ain't tryna complain
But shit ain't been the same
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I done made something from nothing
I done came a long way gotta finish what I started
Momma always told me boy don't worry you got it
Now I got my shit ready and I'm trying to pop it
And I don't trip about the money cuz I know that I got it
Still ain't made it out the hood but they know that I'm trying
Busted my ass to get it all and I deserve it so fuck it
And I took my shit too far how you gon' tell me to stop it?
Tired of people saying they got my back
Truth be told you just wanna knock me off track
Still ain't got no one behind me put my friends in the past
That's why I look over my shoulder I don't wanna get stabbed
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And I don't care about no clothes
I can't get dirty cuz I'm dripping head to toe
If you wanna talk about it I been had it all
Remember being broke I been there before
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