Overpowered

I have lost all of the strength in my mind
To keep on fighting these anxious thoughts
In the classroom it causes me severe chest pain
To the point where I have to disappear
For most of class it's challenging to contain
All of these heightened emotions and fears
That always overpowers me and never goes away
I just want a place to go hide and isolate myself
From the place that will give me an education and future pay
It should be easy to sit there and stare at the classroom board
But instead my mind acts like each situation has shades of grey
When its exhausting that my mind can't gain control of this
I'm overpowered from being in that place
That keeps on dragging me back in
Time and time again my heart can't stop racing
Each time I hope the result is different
I'm running out of solutions and patience
My heart and lungs can only handle so much
Damage from all the anxiety I've been facing
Constantly for five days a week
There's only so much pills I can take without overdosing
Or feeling numb like a zombie that is walking dead
I don't know if it's worth the headache feeling broken
On the inside and out is that really a good way to live life
Feeling like your stuck in the middle of the ocean
With no lifeguard in sight to rescue you
I'm sorry I have trouble reaching out and being social
With people I'm not a cold person I just can't breathe
There's a difference between the two that's the notion
That people should believe about me
Is that I hide on the top floor thinking of a solution
To solve my problems while crying my eyes out catching my breath
I'm overpowered from being in that place
That keeps on dragging me back in
Time and time again my heart can't stop racing
Each time I hope the result is different
I'm running out of solutions and patience
My heart and lungs can only handle so much
Damage from all the anxiety I've been facing
Constantly for five days a week