Pretty Tired

I guess I'm solving myself like a chess
Any solutions just not to be depressed
Can someone please pat my head to caress?
I can't calm myself without crying less

Living in a painful city
And walking paths so lonely
Watching every eyes that sees me
Who's probably asking, or thinking who I am

And when that girl touch me
And she let go, I feel lonely
And I'm tired of all the lies
But yeah, I felt that butterflies

'Cause I've been pretty tired
And every night, I fucking tried
But crying pulled me on my side
And in the morning, it simply dried

And I promise I'll be better
I'm just finding who I am
And exploring what I am
I'm pretty tired

And they'd go even murmur like
"Wait, who is this?" and "Why does he exist?"
Can't speak the words I wanna spit
And right now, yeah, all I wanted is to quit

And when that girl touch me
And she let go, I feel lonely
And I'm tired of all the lies
But yeah, I felt that butterflies

'Cause I've been pretty tired
And every night, I fucking tried
But crying pulled me on my side
And in the morning, it simply dried

And I promise I'll be better
I'm just finding who I am
And exploring what I am
I'm pretty tired (tired)
I'm pretty tired (tired)

I am just very confused
And every night, I ask myself
Am I okay? Am I fine?
Then why can't I just feed myself?
And I promise I'll be better
I just don't know what is better
I was never nearly better