System Error

I tried to serve with grace
They tried to take my rhymes and kill my soul and wear my face
I built a house from planted seeds
But I just burned the base
I am not a follower I pray and still believe in faith
But not divinity hip hop's holy trinity
It's music with a message cleanse your palette it's a cleaner taste
I travel all around the world like an amazing race
Making hella smoothies with some mangoes and some frozen grapes
Living by myself I'm used to eating off some paper plates
I channeled all the hurt I caused into my inner pain
They tried to curse my name for things I did to ones I loved
Cuz if I loved them why did I go on and break their trust
And what did I become
A person not in touch
With all the normal feelings that you get when you grow up
That's what you get when half the people you know end up shot
I got some angels looking at me like they disappointed
And all the choices that I made I wish that I avoided
I hope this song can clean my sins and wash away the filth
Manifest revitalize the dreams that I have sold and killed
Forreal

I won't forget my life
I will protect whats mine
This little light of mine I'm finna let it shine
I thought my fathers death was all I had and all thats left
He couldn't even speak I only heard his dying breath
I can't decide what's next
My families dialect
From languages that I neglect
A hyphenated side affect
I suspect a wider lens is needed for the lies I left
I hope to get my moneys worth eventually I'll hire death
End it all and live again
It all depends on my success
I cast a wider net to catch emotions I collect
These tabs I take provide affects
My mental health my mind reflects
Co-signed by these activists that kicked my ass that I respect
Ruby Bam and Ate only want what they thinks best for me
But how much can I work on when there's nothing really left of me
Ancestors testing me
I realize my chemistry produces all these melodies
Taking ecstasy inside the filipino embassy
Cuz I can't even cope with this American identity
Substances the remedy eventually I'll let it be
Remember me focus on the love and the serenity
I hope my life expectancy
Keeps growing that's what's next for me
For now I'll roll my weed up and just manifest my destiny
I'll calculate my recipe and sell it to the industry