Marathon

Foreign accent eccentric was born in Paris
Normal parents who split up and divorced the marriage
No horse and carriage both their course went separate
Stayed in Maryland the cross I had to bear it
Music was my heart I played pick up at the park
Tim Hardaway handles I used to pick em apart
Stick shift up in my car
Most people couldn't drive those
Would channel Hulk
Lifting weights getting bulk like Costcos
Listening to Rae Nas and Ghost
Struck a pot of gold
To me that was the gods gospel
I felt my knowledge grow
Once a week I spoke to moms yo she missed me
Doing what I did survive
I kept it discreet
Trip to New York, LA back to Philly
T Doogie Nom and Kane
Stuck together like a ball and chain
Growing pains label meetings that's the game
Louis West playing music for Reggie Osé
Rest In Peace king
What a blessing life taught me things
Jewels laid out in front of me
I took em like offering
So much baggage I would carry from my childhood
Insecurities my first demos didn't sound good
Anytime I tried to quit would start hearing voices
Would keep me up at night
Was a sub-par boyfriend
Also bad choices when it came to women
I push some away tried to shake my demons but I couldn't
Had my days where my laziness would paralyze me
Woke up to nightmares of failure that would terrorize me
Would meditate and take a run outside
The sweat purging out the toxins had to think out the box
Self-sabotage I had to outfox myself
The negative inner-self talk
I had to stop myself change the narrative
One day at time baby steps
Stand tall like the logo on the hood of a Mercedes Benz

Blood sweat and tears
I was here for it all
Success money rap career I'm prepared for it all
The good and the bad
The worst and the great storms and earthquakes
At the epicenter had to move to its birthplace
Since the first grade struggled with language that was a hurdle
Brought real bars to the Essence Fest that was unheard of
My belief system was to keep my visions at their peak wisdom
Fuck realistic I see different
Keep distant
From the bad minds I'm agile
Soldier keep my moves kosher like a Rabi
Ambrosia closer to my dreams like Goapele
Old wounds closing up as my blood coagulates
Old school habits I shaked off and laced y'all
I don't wanna be a star I'm a quasar
Great scars lost my dad lost a few friends
Watched some new trends had to tie up some loose ends
Could never blend with the other folk I'm on another mode
Carrying the genome my father and my mother wrote
You can be here then disappear in a puff of smoke
When life's shoulders turn cold like winter up in Buffalo
I took the high road keyboard warriors never mind those
My shine rose got off my high horse and god knows
It took awhile for these lessons to sink
And do the opposite a pessimist thinks
I had to exit the ring
No longer struggle now I ease by
Live for the now no longer rewind made a switch like Batista huh
Leave a tip for the barista hop on the train
A rain drop hit my forehead
It made me stop and wait
How you enjoying what's around you when you always running
The fear of failing's a constant had to overcome it
Today I woke up with the sun beaming
Big smile on my face
Time to make it happen kid
I'm done dreaming