Addiction

I could've sworn I was running
But you're still attached
I tried to live for the future
But I'm running back
Trying to cope but I lose
I take a dose then I'm bruised
Tell me which one do I choose
Swear I'm not going back

Every time you say you love me does it mean
A thing
Every time I need a hit will it heal my pain
Every time you swing on me does it mean the same
Can somebody please tell me now before I go insane

Then I start to lose my mind
Cause I'm the one to blame
You're the drug that I'm choosing
Not to take away
Thinking nothing's wrong
Telling people I'm okay
(am I really?) That might only last a day

Saying goodbye to tomorrow
I won't make it too far
You are the addiction that tore me apart

Looking for the answers but I never say no
Feeling forced to be with you cause I can't go
I'm addicted to the feeling of your highs and lows
It's a risk that I'm taking when the doors are closed
I will go and get some help but now I don't know
Addicted to the feel now I need another dose
I try to act like I'm good but when you're gone I need more
Cause you're the addiction that Im living for

I regret every return
Lying to the world cause I still won't learn
I've broken promises that I vowed to keep
And I apologize cause I've been so weak
So please don't leave

Interventions seem to fail
Relapses I don't tell
The world gives me hell
But I know that I can prevail

I could've sworn I was running
But you're still attached
I tried to live for the future
But I'm running back
Trying to cope but I lose
I take a dose then I'm bruised
Tell me which one do I choose
Swear I'm not going back

Every time you say you love me does it mean
A thing
Every time I need a hit will it heal my pain
Every time you swing on me does it mean the same
Can somebody please tell me before I go insane

Then I start to lose my mind cause I'm the one to blame
You're the drug that I'm choosing not to take away