Empty (feat. Jaiden)

Mirror, mirror on the wall (yeah)
Tunnel vision on the flaws
In the scale of things, it's unimportant
So no talking, but it's still an intrusive thought

Tried hard to correct it (yeah)
But nothing was effective
No one else seemed so obsessed with it
Things were desperate until the voice crept in
"I can help you, trust me, you're ready"
It seemed dangerous, but it said to have faith in it
"The secret is to just be empty"
Didn't know if it was wise to listen but
What could it hurt to try?

And at first, it was working
But then things were emerging
Cracked lips and tired eyes
I'm hungry with no appetite
And I'm shivering and shaking
And I tell myself it's fine but
You can't fool your body
You can only fool your mind, yeah

Empty, I just need to be empty
Hide from anybody who'll prevent me
Just fill up on water and shame
No, I'm not hungry, I just ate
I developed a taste for this
Endure the never-ending ache convince
Myself I'm in control
And it's not all the voice that makes me sick

Inside, it's em-em-em-empty
I know, I know it's wrong
I'm looking, but I can't see myself
Inside, it's em-em-em-empty
I know, I know it's wrong
But it's so hard to stop it alone

Been getting even worse (uh)
All the days begin to merge (yeah)
Just a blurry haze and now it's almost second nature to ignore the urges
Can't trust my own nature (uh)
Every calorie a failure (uh)
Gotta push the intake down every day
'Cause the voice comes back to say

"You want to eat? Bite your tongue"
Don't wanna stay an embarrassment
Just have to stomach it
"They don't know what you want"
A tug of war against common sense
I don't wanna believe that I've overstepped

But it's so overwhelming
And I hope no one can tell
'Cause the numbers keep decreasing
This ordeal is becoming routine, check
Arms, back, neck, thighs
Suck it in and pinch my sides
The scales are betraying me
The mirror is a lie

Numbers, it all comes down to numbers
I know it's wrong, but
Just because you know you're colorblind
Doesn't mean you can see the colors
Fine, I admit I'm addicted
But the hunger feels good, how do I quit this?
I know I could die, I've seen the statistics
But the voice is with me through thick and thin

Inside, it's em-em-em-empty
I know, I know it's wrong
I'm looking, but I can't see myself
Inside, it's em-em-em-empty
I know, I know it's wrong
But it's so hard to stop it alone

Inside, it's em-em-em-empty
I know, I know it's wrong
I'm looking, but I can't see myself
Inside, it's em-em-em-empty
I know, I know it's wrong
But it's so hard to stop it alone

I can reach out
To someone not like me
If you ask for help, it doesn't make you weak
I can reach out
To someone not like me
I can help my mind to learn to trust my body

I can reach out
To someone not like me
If you ask for help, it doesn't make you weak
I can reach out
Ignore what the voice tells me
I can help my mind and learn to trust my body

Inside, it's em-em-em-empty
I know, I know it's wrong
I'm looking, but I can't see myself
Inside, it's em-em-em-empty
I know, I know it's wrong
But it's so hard to stop it alone

Inside, it's em-em-em-empty
I can reach out (I can reach out)
Inside, it's em-em-em-empty
I can reach out (I can reach out)