Emotionally Disturbed

Where can I start? What should I say?
You go by AC, but I'm tryna talk to Dre
You're visiting the past
You're playing the flashbacks
Where at an time that
You would get a lot of flack
These kids hate on you since they thought you was wack
While these teachers didn't like how you always react
They wanted you on medicine to behave in class
But your parents saw they were on some type of bull crap
You was labeled emotionally disturbed
But really, you was just a kid who just wanted to be heard
They disregard your voice and to make this worst
Folks didn't wish you well, tryna hit you where it hurts
Growing up as a kid
It hurt your confidence
You tried to fit in
But it lead to nothing
If anything, in school you got into a lotta fights
'Cause these kids hated you, it was hard to socialize
When you would walk around, you would get the side eyes
These girls passed you up, didn't look like their type
It got you feeling like you would be a no one
That affected your self esteem for years to come

Maybe I'm insane, I'm probably crazy
I'm tryna have the strength to stand up and believe
But their words and actions, they cut real deep
I gotta hold my heart while I bleed emotionally
Maybe I'm insane, I'm probably crazy
Or I'm dealing with a case of this A.D.H.D
I had to ask myself, "Am I really worthy?"
Or maybe I just look at this world differently

It's 2017 in my second year of college
So I had to sit down make plans for my future
I took to this pen and I wrote my wrongs
I fell in love with film and starting writing rap songs
3 years went by I got surgical with this
I knew right then, yeah I found my outlet
Better hide ya wives, you better hide ya kids
'Cause when I spit that real, I ain't splitting wigs, ya dig?
You say you got bars but you really shooting blinks
I'm Ja Rule with this pen 'cause I murder ink
When you see come alive on this microphone
I stand with some of the best and yeah I'll hold my own
Me saying I'm the best, you say that I'm cocky
I'm not gonna wait around, you don't like me
'Cause yeah man I'm great, I don't care what you say
You can bring all of that hate, imma still be okay
You can throw me in the furnace imma walk through the flames
You can hold me underwater, imma still ride the waves
'Cause Jesus is my rock, imma lean on his faith
So don't you be surprised when you all hear me say

Maybe I'm insane, I'm probably crazy
I'm tryna have the strength to stand up and believe
But their words and actions, they cut real deep
I gotta hold my heart while I bleed emotionally
Maybe I'm insane, I'm probably crazy
Or I'm dealing with a case of this A.D.H.D
I had to ask myself, "Am I really worthy?"
Or maybe I just look at this world differently

People will give you labels when they don't want to understand you. They'll call you by every name they came up with except the ones God called you by. But I had to realize I am fearfully and wonderfully made, I am righteous in God's sight and I've been set free from the oppression and opinions of others that doesn't serve my purpose and I don't care if none of y'all don't like that

I know I'm not insane
I'm not crazy
I was dealing with a case of this A.D.H.D
And then I realize God made me worthy
I don't care what these people gonna say about me



Credits
Writer(s): Andre Cheek
Lyrics powered by www.musixmatch.com

Link