Only Gotta Start

I shouldn't be still playing this stupid bar
Banging out Mr. Brightside again on this guitar
Getting cynical and jaded
Like an old jazz head at Smalls getting faded
It shouldn't be this hard to leave her
The heartbreak and Covid quite the partners
Doubled over wondering why I deserve this
Is this really how the story ends
So I asked Mama, said
Why are my soul and my body playing war in my head
Angel and the devil making love in my bed
How do I stop every way out from turning instead for the worse

She said you only gotta start
Only gotta start
Let go of the dark
Let go of the dark
You only gotta start
Only gotta start
Have a change of heart
Have a change of heart

I shouldn't be still tossing and turning
Where's the power down button for my thinking
Only being honest here in writing
I'll deny it if you ask me in person
I shouldn't be cutting off my old friends
But not making real attempts at new ones
Am I just a stray boat in the ocean
No direction just floating
So I asked mama said
Why are my soul and my body playing war in my head
Angel and the devil making love in my bed
How do I stop every way out from turning instead for the worse

She said you only gotta start
Only gotta start
Let go of the dark
Let go of the dark
You only gotta start
Only gotta start
Have a change of heart
Have a change of heart

Now there's a knot you can tie at the end of your rope
There's a climb you can take at the end of your slope
Move on
Move on

I shouldn't be still playing this stupid bar
Banging out Mr. Brightside again on this guitar
But if it's all that I amount to
How will I find a way to pull through
Well I only gotta start