Understanding

Your absence
It weights down on my mind
But I begin to feel the slack given to me by the snapping of our ties
(In the distance)
Everything falls out of sight
(Can't look to the past
We left it all...)

Behind these walls you've hidden who you really are
And I don't understand how you can face a feigned reflection
I don't see how

(You've fed yourself a lie)
(You've broken the promise too many times)
And all my condolences
Wasted on (your fake) trepidation

Well this mindless focus tears us apart
And in the end you weren't so broken
You'd watch us fall before reaching out a helping hand
But we picked ourselves up
We picked ourselves up again
And brushed off these condescendences

(We stand) as you turn away
The colors flowing from my hands
Will not turn to gray
(We stand) as you turn your head
My glare is ever bright
And you're losing shades

You're losing shades, contemplating everything (what's left of it)
You're losing shades (disdained)
Contemplating what remains

Nothing will remain
Of anything
All your attempts to be
A bigger piece of nothing

Well this mindless focus tears us apart
And in the end you weren't so broken
You watched us fall before reaching out, a helping hand
But we picked ourselves up
We picked ourselves up again

Finding ourselves here again
Repressing vicious and introspective means to bitter ends
Finding the fault in what makes us fake, you stayed pretend
Growing apart was never my intent