Rather Be Dead

I look in head, I need an answer, always fight the feeling
I need some space, I smoke this weed
Surpass these thoughts, appealing
This death I think about myself while peelin' skin from bones
Won't get the phone, not headed home
These hoes so prone for love, alone, I
Rest with my piece, no peace, these demons in my head still screamin'
Sucker want my time, but I'm left on read every time
So fuck your feelings
Always in my head, know I'm better off dead
With these meds in head, I'm spinnin', need bread
These bitches want love, fuck 'em, leave 'em on read
With these words in head, out of bed, I
Write with the lead from my pen, no lead in my head
Though rather be dead
Better things high off a dose to wreck
Manifest my luck though, livin' a mess
Fuck it, dead alive, I will own the night
Darkness in my sight, Heaven not arrived
God in spite of life, quiet now forever leadin'
Nothin' always bluffin', fuck it, wanna die

Yeah, yeah, fuck it, wanna die
I don't know why I try
Can't feel anything other than this pain inside my mind
Wanna give up and quit
I can't stand my pride
When I'm down on my luck, wanna just go and hide
When the voices in my head just won't be quiet
I been feelin' like shit, it ain't no need to try and lie, like
Ayy, ayy, do you remember on that day when I looked you in the face?
Told you, "I ain't feel the same," and then turned and walked away
Yeah, yeah, you ain't know what you say, I was feelin' really brave
Started playin' in my grave and suffocatin' from the weight
I ain't have no one to catch me
When I started fallin' all the way from grace
I'm ashamed of the games, like fuck
Maybe I'll just give it up
Throw it all away for a little bit of fun
Just so I can feel alive one more time when I'm numb
And I'm feelin' too alone when you call
So I don't got the time out my day
Just to pick up my phone 'cause it's off while I'm poppin' things
To help me kill off some the pain
And I don't want to talk 'cause I can't let you see me be this way
I know you really hate it when I'm fucked up
But I'm fucked up every day
Maybe I'll just give it up
Throw it all away for a little bit of love
Just so I could feel alive without taking all these drugs
When I'm feelin' too alone and you call
So I'll go make the time out my day just to pick up my phone
When it's off 'cause I'm poppin' things
To help me kill off some the pain
And I don't want to talk 'cause I can't let you see me be this way
I know you really hate it when I'm fucked up
But I'm fucked up everyday
Now, love, fuck



Credits
Writer(s): Mel Wood, Xavier Goodson
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