Lust

You feel like you have no one to talk to
I can relate
Exposed
To sex in my home
To figure things out on my own
11 years old
on a computer with an innocent curiosity
What is Porn?
I watched it
My aunt asked me if I saw something I shouldn't have
This is where it all (this is where it all started)

Separation, Isolation, Fornication, Devastation
LUST
The Powerful Cunning Enemy took over me
It's like a Drug, probably worse
A Progressive Poison
That Leads to Death & Tragedy
In the year 2022,
It Led me to Homelessness

SLEEPING OUTSIDE ON A BENCH FOR 5 MONTHS
IT GOT SO BAD THAT I WANTED TO DIE
AND FIND A WAY TO COMMIT SUICIDE!
But I felt the need to Confess to someone
I told a brother in Christ
and he said
"Because You are Not Doing God's Will"
"For this is God's Will That you abstain from sexual Immorality"

How could something seeming so insignificant
become an addiction
Lord I don't understand this
Please reveal to me
The Truth of the Spirituality
hidden from My Eyes

Don't let me come to the demise
FROM THE ENEMY'S LIES

i was just a little kid
i didn't understand it
i was just learning growing and developing
just like everybody else
learning things and didn't know what was going on
i didn't know that it was wrong
can this really be so wrong?
lust

You've got to stay on the Narrow Way
and Concentrate
It's insanely difficult but it'll be worth it in the end
This path is riddled with so much pain & rigorous trials
Keep God close for your Survival
God gives you discipline for your mission
This world is untrustworthy but this isn't your Final Destination
The enemy won't go easy on you
Your Hard Times
Are TRAINING TIMES
Conditioning & Strengthening
Don't waste your Young Years
They're full of confusion struggle and frustration
but once again this isn't your final destination
while you're still young don't just focus on having fun
focus on learning growing & becoming Wise
refine your gift & Let it Shine
stay away from the wrong people
negativity & foolishnes
The World Is FULL OF IT!!!