The Rat Fortress

Can I ask you what it's like to be a nihilist?
You'll ask me what's the difference
To live's to die you say that's all there is
I sink as I think as I wonder why
I let my body decay from the inside
I sink as I think as I wonder why
Cross my arms and beg to die
Can I ask you "Are you happy how you're living?"
And you'll respond "What the fuck's the difference?"
Responsibilities don't care about your mindset
They'll just take and take and take and
Take and take and take and take
All that you have to give
So I'll scream out "Are you happy how you're living?"
And you'll respond "What the fuck's the difference?"
I barely eat I rarely sleep I've lost a lot of weight
So I'll keep burning my lungs away
Tell my mother I'm sorry, I fear that there's not enough time
There's sharks in the water though nobody seems to mind
I'm digging for solace but it's not buried in my thighs
There's blood in the water and I'm afraid what it hides
I know that I do not want to lie
But sometimes (sometimes) it's hard to stay aligned
I sink as I drink as I long to be high
I'd spend my last breath to apologize
I'm sorry darling I just can't get to the phone right now
I'm not angry I'm just fighting with my younger self
My lungs collapse as I become the thing I used to hate
I wanted more, I wanted more than I knew I could take
Can I ask you how you think the song ends?
And you'll answer oh you'll answer



Credits
Writer(s): Arcadia Grey
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