stranger at the dinner table

When I was a kid I had it all wrong
Thought I was a man until a boy came along
And I stayed on the playground of that very day
When I learned who I'm drawn to could draw them away

Sit up straight and maybe you won't have to tell them
And grow up learning how to be a different person
Convince yourself it'll be enough to marry someone you don't love
And build a family on a lie to keep the family line
So you sit, half as whole
A stranger at the dinner table

It's like watching the TV from inside the show
And playing a character that nobody knows they wrote
What's a joke if they don't know that it's you thеy're laughing about?
And then they ask why you'rе quiet when their hand's over your mouth

Sit up straight and maybe you won't have to tell them
And grow up learning how to be a different person
Convince yourself it'll be enough to marry someone you don't love
And build a family on a lie to keep the family line
So you sit, half as whole
A stranger at the dinner table

And they try to fix the parts of you they broke
Do they know that holy water is just cold?
And they made you keep it all from the ones you love the most
And I'll never get the time back to tell my mother who she holds