RESTING MY EYES

Existential question mark
I'm getting set to disembark
I don't wanna disappoint
But every point is off the mark
Feeling still as empty space
Nothing written, still erase
Basket case, I sit and stare
Take up space, breathe up air
Sit and stare, sit and stare, sit and stare
Am I going anywhere?
Who cares
Lookie there, the wall is like a lovely shade of whiteness
Stare at it intently 'til I see my own likeness
Don't know why indifference infects me like a virus
Boy, why are you like this?
Lifeless
Ay, who are you to ask?
Can't see time but watch it pass
Built nothing out of something
Always hustling while I'm coming last
Goes too fast, it goes too fast, goes too fast
When will there be peace at last?
I'm speeding but I'm getting passed
Goes too fast, goes too fast, goes too fast
I don't need a clock to see that time is slipping by my ass
I don't have a message or a plan or a prophecy
In the mirror, visage of a man, still looks new to me
Ending of the tunnel, there's a light to see, well probably
But I can't see my hand in front my face so I must disagree
Disagree, disagree, I must disagree
Wake me when this trip is done 'cause just for now I wanna sleep
Just for now I want to sleep
Just for now I want to sleep

You probably don't know it, but you the reason why I hate my life
Causing all this strife like a polished knife
Twist and I turn, forget what I learned
University is feeling like a mental prison blinding us
From how we should be living, crying, don't know what I'm living for
Popping pills just to clear my skin
Even though it's natural to feel sin
We all the same both in and out
Why do I care what comes out of they petty mouths?
I feel the universe it's coming out of my throat
I see my soul's reflection emanate, my eyelids afloat
I feel the light being absorbed, my eyes they getting tired
Feel the light it's getting brighter
My heart muscle growing tighter
I got nuclear bombs blowing up in my brain
Feel like the president the way I'm playing all of these games
And I can't do nothing about the suffering
Her eyes got my heart fluttering
But the flutter equals pain and when pain arrives it's time to die inside
But at least there's outside
Fuel my mind 'til I'm blind
Ride it out 'til I hear God's Chimes, fuck a dime
But in the End, I'mma keep living life

Pacing up and down patiently waiting
Face facing the ground praying I make it
Bracing up to jump on what I'm chasing
Once my moment comes I hope I take it

Come assess my style
I set the best aside
I send my rhymes flying sky-high
When I testify
I take a track for a test drive
Nearly every night
I'm cooking verses like a rap pie
Eating every bite
True in due time the weed high be decriminalized
But until then I'll be stressing mostly all of the time
Plus I dunno what I'm doing with the rest of my life
But for now I'm using music as a test for my mind
Through and through I'm sticking true to what my heart has decided
Open up my mind to find some inspiration inside
If motherfuckers are bugging
Then you can call me pesticides
And I'mma keep on throwing heat until I'm resting my eyes

Not sleeping, I'm just resting my eyes

Pacing up and down patiently waiting
Face facing the ground praying I make it
Bracing up to jump on what I'm chasing
Once my moment comes I hope I take it