Guilt and Gratitude

Another ghost in the phone
Another empty chair in my living room
And I started thinking, maybe I should be gone too
It's not that I wanna die
I just can't figure out why I'm still alive
I found my way out but I left you all behind

Well I've got some questions for this God I'm meant to trust
How did I escape my 20s?
Weren't you supposed to deliver us?
And I guess I should say that I'm grateful today
And I'll say it if I must
But ashes to ashes, how am I a survivor? I should be dust

Still paralyzed from the call
Could've sworn you'd made it through it all
But your heart couldn't handle the damage from the fall
6 hour drive til I'm home
I've worn this suit to too many funerals
I thought I bought it for weddings, but I guess I should've known

Well I've got some questions for this God I'm meant to trust
How did I escape my 20s?
Weren't you supposed to deliver us?
And I guess I should say that I'm grateful today
And I'll say it if I must
But ashes to ashes, how am I a survivor? I should be dust

This gratitude and guilt consume me
A raging war behind my eyes
I swear I'll carry on your memories
I swear I'll never let them die
And as I walk this path before me
I'm searching for a signal fire
I'm seeing smoke, it's taking my breath away

Well I've got some questions for this God I'm meant to trust
How did I escape my 20s?
Weren't you supposed to deliver us?
And I guess I should say that I'm grateful today
And I'll say it if I must
But ashes to ashes, how am I a survivor? I should be dust
Ashes to ashes, how am I a survivor? I should be dust



Credits
Writer(s): Jason Eric Lippman
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