Wishes

I wish I was a reader and I wish I was
The kind of daughter that calls her mom
With stupid questions or anything at all

And I wish that I was smaller or I wish I was
Better at being kind to the one body that I've got
After all, it keeps me breathin' 'til the day it just cannot

I wish I didn't feel like a burden
All the time
Wish I were certain I wanna live this
Kind of life

I wish I didn't linger on every thought
Reshaping every moment to the point of losing touch
Wish I was in my body 'stead of hovering above (oh)

And I wish that I was harder and I wish I was
Less of a feeler so it wouldn't hurt so much
But I offer all my pillows and I give my bed to lay
I'm a shoulder for a cry until the tears melt me away

I wish I didn't feel like a burden
All the time
Wish I were certain I wanna live this
Kind of life

I wish that I was smarter and I wish I could
Communicate a thought without being misunderstood
But it's better keeping quiet, yeah, it's easy staying put

And I wish I didn't cater when I know I should've
Stop begging for forgiveness and start putting down my foot
I'm just used to people pleasing, yeah, I've gotten way too good
I think I've become the person that I said I never would

I wish I didn't feel like a burden
All the time
Wish I were certain I wanna live this
Kind of life

I wish I didn't (I wish I didn't) feel like a burden
Ah-oh
I wish I wasn't (I wish I wasn't) so scared of something
Oh-oh-ooh

I wish these wishes weren't all for nothing
All the time