She Said

It took me so long to write this
'Cause I had to notice
All the shit that you put me through
Had to look through the damage and me micromanage
All the trauma that left me so blue

It came to the holidays
I couldn't bear the weight
The blurred memory tattooed in my mind
I was breaking down
My own self, nowhere to be found
To me, I'd forgotten to be kind

'Cause I don't even know your own fucking last name
And you don't know the people who've had to hold my lifeless frame
And I say

I'm sorry if this hits home
But I need you to know
You stripped all of my innocence and left me all alone
I can't take back that night
I wish I'd put up a fight
But drowned in the alcohol, you had run the right
Standing in a stained white dress
I was doused in red
But that's what she said

Another side to the story
I used to feel sorry
'Cause I thought it had been my fault
When I suspect I see you
I struggle to move
My whole life comes to a hault

Disregarding my emotions
Don't you ever get the notion that I just need the comfort of a friend
My fears are far from flying
But this is me trying
I'll be haunted til the very end

'Cause I only remember sobbing down the phone
There's a bullet hole in me now, ricocheting through my bones
And I say

I'm sorry if this hits home
But I need you to know
You stripped all of my innocence and left me all alone
I can't take back that night
I wish I'd put up a fight
But drowned in the alcohol, you had run the right
Standing in a stained white dress
I was doused in red
But that's what she said

I watched them dote on you
They all watched me fall through
And all those lies you drew
Is what little I remember true?
If I didn't laugh or break a smile I know I'd cry
But you, you didn't seem to mind
'Cause every time you see me, you don't apologise

So I'm sorry if this hits home
But I need you to know
You stripped all of my innocence and left me all alone
I can't take back that night
I wish I'd put up a fight
But drowned in the alcohol, where was the green light?
Leaving in a stained white dress
Tainted by bloodshed
Now you've left a mess in my head
Yeah that's what she said