Historical Fiction

I don't want to feel this
So why'd I acknowledge it
Emotion swears it's gonna last
But now I'm too smart for that

I set it in motion
Drew a falsifiable conclusion
Sidled up to an illusion
A clock watcher's work is never done

I don't have to commit to caring about you
You're gonna make me a fool if it's the first thing you do
I don't have to continue to care when you're
Technically a fictional character
If you can't prove you're really there
Then I don't have to commit to care, though you

Taught me those card games
And told me your secret middle name
Remembering the way you taste
Remembering the way I ached

To forge a connection
With a fellow human being
Sunk the costs since I was diving in
But then you used up all the oxygen

I don't have to commit to caring about you
You're gonna make me a fool if it's the first thing you do
I don't have to continue to care when you're
Not in my cinematic universe
When at best you're not all there, I'm just
Not down to keep your balls in the air and commit
Commit to care

It wasn't all in my head
Darling, I've got witnesses
And if it's all a game to you
I'll just make up my own rules

I can leave you off the album
I can lock you in the vault
I can strike you from the setlist
Or simply tell the world it's all your fault