Never Wonder

I wonder if you're still collecting crystals
And if that greenhouse that we built you is still up
I wonder if you're wondering
Where I am or who I'm with
Cause I wonder that stuff

I wonder if you're still rewatching Fleabag
And if you think about that last night that we did
I wonder if the memories
Mean as much to you as they do to me
Cause I treasure them

You know me
Always in my head
I've spent countless hours wondering

But I never ask myself
If you really cared
I never wonder
If I needed you
If you would be there
I wonder where you are and what you do and how you feel
But I never wonder
If what we had was real

I wonder if you still read Kristin Hannah
And if you still order your Venti Soy Iced Chai
Light ice
I hope you know, everywhere I go
I wonder what it'd be like by your side

You know me, always in my head
I've spent countless hours wondering

But I never ask myself
If you really cared
I never wonder if I needed you
If you would be there
I wonder where you are and what you do and how you heal
But I never wonder

If what we had was real
If what we had was true
If all of it meant everything
To both me and you
And if I had a time machine
I'd never wonder where I'd go
06/06/20
Same day, same street, same clothes
I'd re-learn all about you
I'd do it all again
I'd relive every moment
Even if I knew it'd end

I wonder if this is the only timeline
Where you and I just could not get it right
I wonder if we'll meet again
Outside of my dreams in bed at night

But I never ask myself
If you really cared
I never wonder if I needed you
If you would be there
I wonder who you are and how you do and where you rest
But I never wonder
If we gave it our best

We're the lucky ones, you know
Meant to be, but not to last
Is better than most

Guys, as they say
When one chapter ends
A bridge appears
And then you cross that bridge
And make lemonade out of a molehill
Okay