Tell Me What It's Like Up There (feat. Alfred Nomad)

Sometimes I scream in my sleep
Been having the same nightmare since I was 3
Sweating and cold fighting to get free
Wish someone
Held it together for me

Will i spend my whole life
Just trying to survive
Will words left unsaid
Be at my death bed

Is it my destiny
To satisfy my needs
Will i be buried by a man
Who violated me

When am I going to find out what it means to love yourself?
When am I going to find out what it means to love yourself?

I pray to my father like, "hey"
How's it going up there today?
Lately I've been stressing
We're in a recession
Could you spare a blessing today?

Don't think I could afford to pay
But i'll pay it forward to someone who needs it
And be an example so they can believe it
My soul aint for sale
But I swear you can keep it

Cause you took my grandma, and you took her husband
You took my good friend and you took my lil cousin
My girl even lost one in the oven
Can't even keep up with who i've been becoming

I swear I'm not crying just cutting onions
Want out memories to last
Hoping you're up there having a blast
But one question I gotta ask

When am I going to find out what it means to love yourself?
When am I going to find out what it means to love yourself?

Screaming in my sleep
Don't know what comes next for me
Screaming in my sleep
Is this who I'm supposed to be?

When am i going to
When am I going to
Find out what it means?

Screaming in my sleep
Is this who I'm supposed to be?

*Scream*

When am i going to find out what it means

*Thoma voicemail*



Credits
Writer(s): Alexandra Futterer, Alfred Wilson Jr Coles
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