December

(I guess its new year/new me)
(I can't wait until December)
(I hope I end up dead)
25th of December, Christmas Day
I can't even remember why I feel this way
I haven't touched the food on my plate, but I guess
That's usual
Yeah, its usual
31st of December, New Year's Eve
I'm scared for the new year, I don't want to leave
Call it seasonal depression
But I never got the hang of celebrating
It's just irritating

So hold me close to the past and never let me go (go, go)
Destroy my fundamentals
Break my character in two
Tell me why
I can't fall asleep at night
Rewrite my chemistry
And tell me, how I should really feel

I guess its new year/new me, oh what a shame
I'd quite like the old me if he wasn't so lame
"What a buzzkill to the party. He's such a mess"
That's what I think they'd say
What I know they'd say
And so I'll write all these songs, about myself
I just can't seem to get enough of myself!
It's emotional dependency on lyrics paradoxically
I can't get away from myself

So hold me close to the past and never let me go
Destroy my fundamentals
Break my character in two
Tell me why
I can't fall asleep at night
Rewrite my chemistry
And tell me, how I should really feel