White Knuckles

I hate goodbyes especially ones I can't predict
And how the wreckage isn't something I could fix
It makes me sick to even think
I have no say in it at all

This feeling forms a constant knot inside my chest
I go to sleep but they don't ever seem to rest
Cause even in my dreams
I'm afraid to drift off course

I keep steering
Timing the lights
Cause what I fear the worst
Is heading straight in
Without knowing what's coming first

So I got a tight grip on the wheel ten and two
Never take any turns stay the route
Control
Don't let go
I'm so scared that what I have will be gone in a flash
But that might be what drives me to crash
And burn
When will I learn
White knuckle driving never gets me too far

I love the power when my fate is in my hands
But there's a chance the universe has greater plans
And I'm stalling destiny
And everything that's meant for me
There's still this hanging dread
It won't be like in my head
So even if it's a mess

I keep steering
Timing the lights
Cause what I fear the worst
Is heading straight in
Without knowing what's coming first

So I got a tight grip on the wheel ten and two
Never take any turns stay the route
Control
don't let go
I'm so scared that what I have will be gone in a flash
But that might be what drives me to crash
And burn
When will I learn
White knuckle driving never gets me too far

If I give up control
Will it all fall down
If I finally let go
Will it all fall down
Will it all fall down
Will it all fall down

If my tight grip on the wheel doesn't help
Cause I'm still vulnerable, can't protect
My heart
From coming apart
Why do I always try to force things to last
Letting go doesn't mean it'll crash
And burn
When will I learn
White knuckle driving never gets me too far