Catapult

I feel like
My back against the wall I'm pressed against the fence
Pressure getting pressed on me
And I'm pressing back again
And I know it's been a second since I checked on you again
Guess that distance helped me grow but thats gon only show within
You prolly think I changed and never wanna see yo ass again
I guess i'm the blame for you assuming that I want revenge
I can't make you change cuz I already know that you convinced
On that's how It is
And i'm not fighting with that shit
Yea I love you kidd
But I ain't fighting for that shit
I guess I'll leave you alone if that's better for you jitt
But don't ever say that I ain't try to get better for you jitt
We part separate ways and It's hate forever for you jitt
I guess I'll forgive you when I get better with that shit
I guess people leaving only make me better with the shit
Less people to make me feel so regretful for the shit
If it mean nothing to you then I guess that's how it is

Catapult me to where the greats stay
Ain't shit sweet that's the name of the game
Hop right off then they back on the wave
Say they all sound the same
Said they all act the same
Catapult me to where the greats stay
Ain't shit sweet that's the name of the game
Hop right off then they back on the wave
Say they all sound the same
Said they all act the same

Hella lone
Can't illustrate the torture locked up in these feelings
I keep a straight face but inside the paint peeling
My true colors still cutting out the crop to find my true brother
It's not neglect but it's respect I tend to give to others
Just to be let down in the end
And the games over kid so ain't no need to play pretend
Because the feelings that I felt for you I'll never feel again
And I wonder if you'll come around and meet me in the end
Too much hope for wishing
A lot of risk to be in my position
When people wanna see you drown and living in the system
When you would rather see me down than see you as the victim
Damn
You wanna see me burning in the sorrows in the pity of my heart
What's in the shade may come to light but I feel comfort in the dark
And every flaw and everything I do you love to pick apart
Stuck to the script and played my role
Like I've been doing from the start

Catapult me to where the greats stay
Ain't shit sweet that's the name of the game
Hop right off then they back on the wave
Say they all sound the same
Said they all act the same
Catapult me to where the greats stay
Ain't shit sweet that's the name of the game
Hop right off then they back on the wave
Say they all sound the same
Said they all act the same

Let's hypothetically speaking
I'm put in situations circumstances where we not speaking
And we beefing and stressing about the shit was said last weekend
My voice is weakened your soul is seeking forgiveness
Don't say I started something when I said it's already finished
The horns of Babylon hill of Zion
Is something that I'm tryna find and hear
It could all be so clear nah
I don't stress the pressure I brush it right off of my shoulders
Nothing lasts forever I'm learning as I'm getting older
A nigga really wish he had the strength to really move boulders
Cuz if I had that I would take the chip right off your shoulders
I can't even think I'm pleading to my shrink
I'm down right on my knees
Begging for the answers that I seek
So as I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Where my friends and family always hold they breathe
I got a bad habit of snapping on bad action I'm grabbing
My own baggage unpacking my demons on that front step