Borrowed Time

I'm old enough now where kids that I knew from the parties have started dying
Homeward bound, I hope that they'll stop and pet Benny, and he'll kiss them for me
I don't know how to grieve someone I forgot

Doctors gave dad 5-10 now this year marks 11
And I've been thinking about borrowed time and whoever loans it
Well I hope they keep going into debt

Last night I went to buy time, on the way I passed Kaedie's, every light was on
The new owners have stripped it right down to the post-beams
But I'm still inside, and I'm 12, and it's summer

There's an old thorn tree, and it's hanging out over my bedroom while I sleep
Right now I'm a lot older than I ever thought
The trick is that I never think about where I should be

Now I'm stuck making faces of taillights and bumpers that pass me, it's the only way to breathe
And I don't wanna break but I could and that scares me so much
That I feel like a child crying still, never letting up

But I think that's enough of that