SHOTS FIRED

Hey

Bitch, bitch, bitch
Bitch, I'm back and better, on the come up for the crown
And you know that I'm a header, but I chill out underground
I've been stackin' up my cheddar like my mom, she raised a hound
I'm not known to take the lesser shit, I'm known to get around
I'm the one to run it up until there's nothing in it left
I'm not one to say what's up, I'm busy cookin' like a chef
I feel like I'm on the hunt, I see who's lookin', I'm up next
I'm not one to go and stunt, I set it all up with a text

I've been chillin' out, I'm tryna fix some issues in my life
And I can break it down, go grab a tissue, I've been so uptight
And there ain't no amount that I can give to go say that it's right
I just hate the way I fuckin' live, I live in fight or flight
I-I-I-I've been talkin' all my shit, I see a red dot on my head
I'm the one to hold my wits, so I can let up when I'm dead
This ain't one that's for the kids
Like you should go make sure they're fed
You can sink in the abyss or you can fight for life instead

I'm only 21 with seven different suicide attempts
And I've been on the run, no one would get it, God knew what I meant
Bitch, I've been havin' fun, like, look, I did it, I took down the tent
I think of what I've done like, "Wait a minute, I do this to vent" (vent)
I've had people all around me tell me everything I'm not
I've had people try to down me, but I give it all I got
And I still feel like I'm drownin', but you know that's not the plot
I just love what I'm amountin', turn a little to a lot (lot)

Like, bitch, I still hallucinate, it leaves me full of fear (fear)
And sometimes I can't communicate, I don't look in the mirror
I've been chillin' in a room of hate, I keep that shit sincere
Like, I hate to go illuminate the times I shed a tear (tear)
I chop the flow up into pieces, I'll go change it like it's nothing
Like I came up through the creases, but I know I'll kick the bucket
I'll go take my chance and seize it, I been yellin' out, like fuck it
My bro Lance had told me peace is something that I need to budget

I've seen family fall apart because they want someone to blame
You should know you're not alone, I try to heal people with pain
People tend to take it low when you have something to your name
Like they hate to see you grow
And then they fill you up with shame (shame)
Like I'm livin' proof of what I say, I don't fuck with pretendin'
And to tell the truth, I'm not okay, that's why I've been repentin'
Think of what I do, it's day by day, it's hard to comprehend it
I just like to think I found my way, I did what I intended

I haven't slept for like a week, I think it's time to change my focus
I'm not even at my peak, but I'm the type to make you notice
Bitch I know that I'm unique, like I still blame my damn psychosis
I'm a wolf out with some sheep, but I know that view gets atrocious
Like, my father fuckin' left me, but I'm still under his skin
He's the type to say, "You need me," I cut ties, I'm not your kin (kin)
That motherfucker used to beat me, tell me, where do I begin?
He's the type to live by quotes and say he's been there for his kids

I even tried to make it right, I guess you're not ready to face it
This is why I've been uptight, it's like it's Freddy verses Jason
I just had to cut my sight, I think of you and I start pacing
Like, I love you more than life, but we're just lackin' some foundation
Like, I hate to hold a grudge, but I can't see it gettin' better
Motherfucker, I won't budge, I'm not the type to write a letter
I've had people go and judge, but I play chess, you're still on checkers
And I say I love the rush, like since it helps me write the records