Killing Me

They say I'm hard to handle
They're just an hour away from
Needing to place flowers and candles
Under the bridge near my home
Cause I'm at the end of my rope
And if don't act now, I'll go emotionally broke
And all hope just goes right out the window
Like wind into the smoke
But maybe it's all okay with me
Maybe things are good at 23
Maybe there's nothing wrong with me
Maybe cries for help are all I need

I'm so fucking over my
OCD my ADHD PTSD cause it's
It's k-i-l-l-i ngin' me
K-i-l-l-i ngin' me
People think I'm borderline
An Antisocial NPD
It's k-i-l-l-i ngin' me
K-i-l-l-i ngin' me

Ya know, I been workin on myself, but it's not really workin

To pill or not to pill
That is the question
Maybe I'll ingest em
And teach my spirit a lesson

I wonder if the urge to end it
Would end up too messy
Or maybe that's ok and it will end up a as blessing

By the time you're hearin this
I could be un-alived
Am I serious or am I just
Tryin to scare myself to the point I'm too afraid to die

The only thing I want dead literally
My insecurities and inability to breath

I'm over my
OCD my ADHD PTSD cause it's
It's k-i-l-l-i ngin' me
K-i-l-l-i ngin' me
People think I'm borderline
An Antisocial NPD
It's k-i-l-l-i ngin' me
K-i-l-l-i ngin' me

M-a-y-b-e-i-j-u-s-t-l-i-k-e-t-o-b-e-m-i-s-e-r-a-b-l-e
M-a-y-b-e-i-j-u-s-t-l-i-k-e-t-o-b-e-m-i-s-e-r-a
B-l-e

I'm over my
OCD my ADHD PTSD cause it's
It's k-i-l-l-i ngin' me
k-i-l-l-i ngin' me
People think I'm borderline
An Antisocial NPD
It's k-i-l-l-i ngin' me
K-i-l-l-i ngin' me

I'd rather numb the pain with pop, hip hop and rock
Than shoot a video of myself crying for tiktok