Understudy ! (feat. monikrr)

Can you give me a second again
I don't need to know everything you say you did
I don't need to know anything you think you meant
I just need you to leave me alone
Can you give me a second, a minute
To gather my self confidence again
It's not from anything you ever meant
But it sounds like you weren't listening to what I said
(What I said)

'Cause I don't wanna hear about your wasted weekends
The time you spent, the bottles, or the bends
I said "I'm over it now"
You start to choke on your smile
I know I've evened it out
Now I'm sitting here wasting my spring break
You're steady looking for the things you can say you'd change
To make me look back fondly
And say "I want it"
And make me fall apart
I'm sorry, but I can't play the part
You want me to

I'm done walking on eggshells
It's just another reason you bring me hell
You said I put it all into someone else
But honestly I'd fucking kill myself
If I did this over again
I don't care what you want
But you get to my head
Spent the last few weeks tryna cut the thread
But you didn't even listen to me when I said
(When I said)

That I don't wanna hear about your wasted weekends
The time you spent, the bottles, or the bends
I said "I'm over it now"
You start to choke on your smile
I know I've evened it out
Now I'm sitting here wasting my spring break
You're steady looking for the things you can say you'd change
To make me look back fondly
And say "I want it"
And make me fall apart
I'm sorry, but I can't play the part
You want me to

Rips in the bottom of bridges you built
On the second worst night I decided to live
With a shard in my hand and a should to cry for
I'm slamming my head into patterns that we forged
Crack at my skull as to crack at your ego
To catch both your eyes
Pay attention with ears closed

'Cause I'm done playin' the part
You want
You want me to