In My Numb

I wish I could be silent
I shouldve kept it quiet
Cause this always happens when I dont
We end up hanging up the phone
Wondering where the good times have gone
Till i'm just
Sittin here
In my numb
In my head
On my own

I tell you why i'm bothered
You always make it personal
And now i'm scared to speak
Cause when I do you flip like burgers do
Actin like im hurting you
Don't address im hurting too
Then im saying sorry cause that aint what I intend to do
Im insecure, I shouldve hid it in the silence
Cant forget the past, but for you just know im trying
It's better off unknown
What I think when im alone
So just to keep the peace when im scared I gotta hide it
I wish I could be
Anyone but me
I'm feeling like a product of my past life
You never see i'm tryna get my act right
And nah it ain't simping it's sacrifice

I wish I could be silent
I shouldve kept it quiet
Cause this always happens when I dont
We end up hanging up the phone
Wondering where the good times have gone
Till i'm just
Sittin here
In my numb
In my head
On my own

Cause even when its toxic
It's Its still the best thats happened to me
You said you loved me and I knew you wasn't capping to me
And couples fight yea
I'm saying we gone make it through that
Gave you my number
Genesis, cause it's just deeper than snap
See that was back when we first started
But now its more about commitment then always being so happy hearted
Cause we can help eachother through this
Even though we probably the main reason we steady goin through shit
But I aint through yet
See I dont wanna let it go
I know you thinkin ladder
So let me speak for' you let me go
Just need to let you know
Wanna see it through
Dont wanna be with nobody
Unless it's me and you

I wish I could be silent
I shouldve kept it quiet
Cause this always happens when I dont
We end up hanging up the phone
Wondering where the good times have gone
Till i'm just
Sittin here
In my numb
In my head
On my own