THE BOY WHO LOST HIS WAY...

Wish I had a reason to stay
Looking back, you were the only one who saw the real me
Wish I stayed
'Cause you were the only one who cared, but I fucked it up, I'm impaired

'Cause my friends are gone and alone, then
They're killing themselves, I wish I could fly them
I can't feel a thing, drown me every night, and
I feel all the pain, better love, better life I'd hope to lie in

Chasing love and chasing fun, erase my love, and now I'm feeling
Chasing hearts and losing spades, I know the deck, I can't be dealing
Losing game, a winning game, the lottery feels so rigged, and
Feel it all and breathe it all, the liquor stains kill me, I've seen it all

Severed feelings sever me
I can't see, or I can't breathe
Seizure on the floor of my friend's basement
Sees me in the bathroom, I'm not innocent
Then I'm tweakin' out, tryna kill myself
Depression makes it break, man, I feel it now
Never could be me, I know that
All my friends left, now I'm golden

Can't be me
Find me in the forest, nature green
Walking on a trail, planned it all
Pressure in my mind, man, I can't get off 'til I fix things
What am I doing? I can't spill rains
Blood pursuing, the blood on my hands
What am I doing? I'm feeling it again
Chasing the high, the pleasure, man, again

Don't mean to talk suicidal
Every fucking flow in my brain's sad
Never wanna make it go wrong
Run away, then I won't be mad at myself
Explain it? But they don't understand I'm faking
All my love, entertaining, all my love, I'm just draining

'Cause my friends are gone and alone, then
They're killing themselves, I wish I could fly them
I can't feel a thing, drown me every night, and
I feel all the pain, better love, better life I'd hope to lie in

What's a steady man? Can I take back my sins?
Did you fade back to when-, did you save him again?
And I loaded the winds, and I can't feel a thing
And I live with diamonds rings, and I can't feel my fucking face



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Writer(s): Strangers With Memories
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