Maybe I Do

knowing myself is like a thorn in my eye
it's not that i can see it but it ruins everything
the reign of the moon
and the love from the sunshine
that should be enough to keep my sad face smiling

I need to know
what happens if I let my feelings show
all of my thoughts that keep me up at night
well here's a start

maybe I do
push everyone away
if they're getting through
maybe I do
keep changing paths
so my dreams will not come true
I need life to come to an end
knowing it does
somehow makes it easier to love

you know what they say
when there's nothing left to hide
that's the closest thing you'll get
to freedom in this life

knowing myself, I'm always on the run
if not from myself
then from the things that I have done

holding you close
as I slip away into the unknown
the whole world implodes
as I'm slipping away
but now you know

maybe I do
let demons in because I like the abuse
maybe I do
wish for the whole world to be ending soon
'cause I need life to come to an end
knowing it does
somehow makes it easier to love

maybe I do
things for myself because I know that I'm true
maybe I do
feel sorry for myself because I do
still need life to come to an end
knowing it does
somehow makes it easier