SHOULD BE PROUD

These nights catch me off guard, it's all falling down
His shots aim to kill 'til I'm still on the ground
And he portrays the victim like no one around
But the devil always finds a way
Now everyone shrugs my name inside and out
And the circus clowns learn that he doesn't amount
To the shit that he claims, or the time that he counts
Now everybody left their has to try to find an out

'Cause they're stuck living in a hell
Cannot be themselves
Everybody wonders how you think you're doing, well?
It's kind of like the sound of your car breaking down
And everybody wonders why I am not on the ground
I didn't make a sound, I thought you should be proud?
But every time I speak it's like you say it's not aloud
Am I aloud to speak?

My plan was to leave him as soon as I can
I cried on the phone talked all night to my friend Jan
About the way that he speaks and the way that he talks to me
When he talks to me
They say, "When you see something wrong, make it right"
But I've never met someone so out of sight
With the way this world works and how to treat someone nicely

And I got out, but I fear they won't
Something got into me, I rolled up my sleeves
And there we go to the place
Where they respect my space and they have manners
And they will never break, 'cause they have standards
I know that jealousy is like therapy or like ecstasy
When your chemistry has no remedy to this song
Am I aloud to speak?

'Cause they're stuck living in a hell
Cannot be themselves
Everybody wonders how you think you're doing, well?
It's kind of like the sound of your car breaking down
And everybody wonders why I am not on the ground
I didn't make a sound, I thought you should be proud?
But every time I speak it's like you say it's not aloud
I thought you should be proud?