I Promise She's Not Real

I venture forth
No intention
Tell me
How 'bout you?
Attentive to the toll that lessens
But I'm through
In the time it took to get the message
Sorry
I withdrew
There's sometimes I don't get it
There's sometimes that I do

It's 3 AM
I can't sleep
I'm up next
Life's so sweet
The pain's steep
I'm damaged
It's all me
I'll manage
A painted over canvas
It's a portrait gone untold
Every brush with death
An imperfection we withhold

It's getting kind of hard to move
With every motion heavy
I levied every detriment
To keep us in the groove
The shallow soul that's coated
In the thickest muck and grime
Time and luck weren't kind to me
Just ask Miss Carolyne

I swear she isn't real
But i can't promise I'll commit
Without a will to live
I'm not a man I think you'll miss
Glare at me 'cause all i want's
Eternal rest and bliss
Every rhyme I spit
A cry for help you all dismiss

I've done a couple songs
About how rapping ain't shit
I'll double down
Let's go again
So tell me
What is this?
Tick tock
Tick tock
A time waste
I'm rotting
Attention span all fucking shot
The mind's a little foggy

Do I do this all for me?
If I don't
What's the point?
Shadow steps and ocean drifts
A life fully devoid
I want the best for us and this
Beyond my scope of joy
I'm scraping every surface
I'll commit what I've implored

Every choice I've made
In forcing every bond I've sought
A plea to make a stop
It's all a risk I'm forced to take
Traverse the broken path
I have a plan to see through
'Cause thirty's coming up
At twenty-nine i hope I do

It might be safe to say
I'd rather force the end than die
At the ripe old age of eighty nine
Pushing borrowed time
I've played my role in life
I've done enough to earn the fare
The day I say goodbye
Just promise you won't care



Credits
Writer(s): Domingo Dominguez Jr
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