Talking to Ghosts

I don't like talking to strangers
My mom says I'm intimidating
So I put on a face to meet faces I will
All alone at the old subway station

And if I say I'm yours will you be mine
Or do you just want some one to pass time
I've got hundreds of friends but they're online
I'm all alone but that's not what it looks like
Anxiety's steering the wheels in my mind

So I pretend that I don't see the red lights
We're speeding through all of the stop signs
He told me one time that I should have thought twice
Before we put the car in drive
I'm not an expert at conversations
But I think I'm talking to ghosts again

I don't like talking to strangers
But I've gotten so good at faking it
I swear I've spent half the time that I've been alive
Waking up wanting to die
He said I shoulda known how this all would end

So I pretend that I don't see the red lights
We're speeding through all of the stop signs
He told me one time that I should have thought twice
Before we put the car in drive
I'm not an expert at conversations
But I think I'm talking to ghosts

Now he's in my bed
Tomorrow he'll forget
All the promises
Always in my head
Says we're better friends
Leaving me on read

Im not an expert at conversations
He said I should have known how this all would end
I think i'm talking to ghosts again