Never an Us

I know it's been a while
And I won't take up too much of your time
But if it wasn't all made up
Then there's something I'd like you to know

I'd never feared the word friend til that night
Early spring, the downfall of my mind
Left the room and had to wonder why
Swallowed my feelings, drove past your red lights

So many questions left
But what's the point, if it was in my head?
Slowly fell for your ghost
Followed by nights that meant nothing at all

Well, now you know why I stepped aside
I see you're doing fine, but in case you'd like to know
What's on my mind?
Well, I've been trying to figure out
Why do I think about you at times?
See, I thought stars had finally aligned, got lost in your eyes just to realize
There would never be an us
Never an us
Never an us
Never

I think every once in a while about giving you a call
Someday running into you
Rehearsed and memorized every line I meant to say, right before I walked away
I slowly killed myself thinking you'd care enough for me
But the truth is, I was just another name

There will never be an us
Never an us
Never an us
Never
Cause there was never be an us
Never an us
Never an us
Never