Love

How you make a plan with me and then you stood me up
How could I pour my heart out And you still not give a fuck
You have so much potential but you're never living up
My patience finally gave out you think I'm giving up

You said you can't rely on no one so you're lonely a lot
But nigga you're unreliable the kettle to pot
You cold then you're hot
I'm telling you that shit gotta stop
Or you lose the best thing that you got

I've been writing in journals
I've been jumping through hurdles to stop from going in circles
To do the healing internally
And bring them to the surface
Break generational curses And see what follows
I ain't ever look to be coddled

New vibe new ride And a new home
A heavy crown that matches well with the new thrown
All the naysayers getting proved wrong
They threw dirt on me but I deaded it - tombstone

So much more to say but I'm down to my last page
This has been a journey that I've been so proud to take
This is the last journal entry for Donny G
I'm anticipating what the future has for me

The bond with my fam growing And I'm healing up
My nephews look up to me like Wikipedia
I slowly break my addiction with social media
I look in mirrors And proud of what I see in them

Who got a problem with me now
Who think they hotter than me now
I've been waiting to get active on a nigga
Take all of my frustrations out in the booth

Then a nigga gone be doomed I'm causing some indecency
My niggas deal out punishments with no leniency
But I'd rather just spread love And live peacefully

Sickening how the feeling of depression always hit me
Then I get to battling
& wrestle with the thought of quitting
But I still keep going

I set a goal just to get me to the next week
My loved ones always drag me to the next day

Can anyone relate
They see these struggles that I face but want the mp3
I think I've been betrayed
They run And lie on me
& twist the ways that I'm portrayed

No matter what these niggas say
And how they instigate manipulate
Just close your eyes
And listen to the words
And how I illustrate

The world is your oyster when them bad thoughts infiltrate
And they Intimidate you
I'll be there to eliminate them

It could be hard to use your words And articulate it
It then you feel it in your chest like defibrillators
And then your breath gets shorter than a centimeter
Anxiety attack it feels like you had a seizure

You think your falling short your so much an over achiever
A truth seeker but on yourself you got to be easier

I'm here to tell you that I love you
Just rely on your strength you got enough too

Love is gas in the car
The food in the table
A shoulder you can lean your head on to keep you stable

It's the conversations that you must have with yourself
It's you putting on your cape when you know someone needs help

Love is gas in the car
The food in the table
A shoulder you can lean your head on to keep you stable

It's the conversations that you must have with yourself
It's you putting on your cape when you know someone needs help

I filled up every single page in this journal
I wrote from my heart And my words are eternal